Buat Sang Cermin

Buat sang cermin . . . .

Pada azalinya,aku juga tidak mengenali kamu,

Baik dari sudut eksternal dan perilaku.

Aku kosong mengenai kamu wahai sang cermin.

Segalanya bermula apabila diri ini mengetahui,

28 merupakan titik persamaan kita yang paling ku minati

Sejak perihal 28 itu,

Aku mula menilai kau,dari setiap ruang dan dimensi.

Cuba untuk memahami siapakah gerangan pria di sebelahku ini.

Lalu terlontarlah beberapa soalan yang agak senang dengarnya,

tapi penuh rahsia dan gunanya.

Ya,

Kita sama.Dari sudut perspektif dan jiwa.

Kita lah yang mengambil jalan yang kosong.

Jalan yang tidak lalu dek orang.

Jalan yang kita rasa lebih baik daripada pilihan majoriti

Bukanlah untuk bersendirian dan sunyi

Hanyalah sebagai suatu bukti,

Kita berpijak di atas kaki sendiri,

Bukan kerana laungan majoriti ,

Yang kononnya gagah jika disemi.

Dan satu lagi yang menyamakan kita,
wahai padanan jiwa kompleks ku,
Tekad untuk berjalan di lorong sendiri,
Peduli,tetapi dengan cara sendiri.

Bagi menjawab soalan engkau,
wahai sang cermin,
diri ini bertinta dengan tangan kanan,
Dan masa ku dijaga dengan tangan kiri.

APAKAH CERITAMU DI SEBALIK SOALAN-SOALAN ITU?

DI SEBALIK CERMIN ITU,

~ AKU NAMPAK KAU DAN KAU NAMPAK AKU ~

Ceritera seorang abang.

Pernah tak dengar ceritera seorang anak sulung?

Sebuah ceritera yang membentuk diri dan peribadi.

Mungkin menyentuh dan menyayat hati.

Seorang insan yang bergelar abang.

Dalam dunia ini ada seorang abang,

yang lahir ke dunia ini seperti abang-abang yang lain.

Keluar tanpa teman dan rakan bermain.

Cuma satu insan yang dia harapkan ketika itu.

"SEORANG ADIK"

Tanggal 26 December 1996,

tangisan adiknya bergema,

menerobos ruang serta dimensi Hospital Kuala Lumpur,

Satu sorakan bagi si abang,

Akhirnya dia sudah berteman.

Seorang adik perempuan,

muka persis dengan si abang,

kedua-duanya ibarat kembar sebaya,

Alya Nadhiah,nama adik jelita.

Ketika itu tiada apa lagi yang lebih penting bagi si abang,

Adiknya,insan utama dalam hidupnya,

Teman bermain,bergaduh dan bercanda,

Walaupun berbeza usia dan jantina.

(Language changed)

So,as they grew up together.

They rarely fight with each other.

Thank God that the brother knows how to handle

His cute little sister.

And,it's good to recall the past,

The brother,never kicked the ball or played polis sentri,

He's a "kaki bangku" not like other boys.

Then,what he did?

To be truth,in the evening.

he pulled the curtain,locked the door,

and played dolls with her beloved sister.

During that time,

there's no girls in their residential area.

So the sister got no friend to play with,

So,the brother was willing to stay at home,

and played dolls with the sister.

The brother,played the dolls until he's in standard three.

Then,the family moved out to other residential area.

And that's when the brother stopped playing dolls with his sister.

Cause they both got what they can call friends.

But still,

They're extremely close to each other,

They shared all the things together,

until now ...

So,the purposes of this story are :

TO TELL YOU HOW CAN I UNDERSTAND GIRLS SO EASILY

TO TELL YOU WHY I AM COMFORTABLE WITH GIRLS RATHER THAN BOYS

TO TELL YOU HOW I GROW UP

TO TELL YOU WHY MY PERSPECTIVE IS DIFFERENT
TO TELL YOU HOW MY WAY OF THINKING WAS FORMED
TO TELL YOU THAT I ALWAYS PUT SOMEONE ELSE BEFORE ME

" Don't ever dream to be a good lover if the love you give to your family is not enough "

" Jangan bermimpi untuk menjadi pencinta,sekiranya keluarga sendiri kurang dicintai "

From Madam Farah.

"Ada orang jalannya berliku.Ada juga orang terlalu lurus jalannya sehingga dia tidak bersyukur,lupa diri dan tidak menghargai segala kemudahan yang dihadapinya di dunia ini"

#Madam Farah #Law 016 #23Julai2013 

#Sometimes,we don't pick our own way.We just,got it.

Define Some Words...

Ia bagaikan cuba menerobos satu dinding menggunakan jarum.
Bagai melipat kepingan konkrit.
Bagai melontar batu ke langit.

Tak mungkin lagi aku mampu mengubah apa-apa.
Bila kata-kata tidak lagi bisa menjadi medium
untuk aku berkomunikasi dan berinteraksi 
sesama mereka yang suka menuduh membuta tuli.

" Dan mereka yang tegar berjalan sendiri akan terus mara menuju sesuatu luar dari jangkauan pemikiran mereka yang ramai. Teguh. "

" Mereka yang berjalan dalam kalangan ramai akan terus kekal berada dalam kalangan ramai itu saja. Sesak. Tiada berubah. "

#cebisan - cebisan kata daripada seseorang yang
menyamai aku.

~ PADANAN JIWA KOMPLEKS ~

Lebih kurang beberapa minggu yang lalu,
seorang gadis,bersih rautnya,
ditakdirkan untuk bertemu dengan aku.
pertemuan pertama,benih sahabat selamanya

Dipendekkan cerita,kami berborak panjang.
Bila mendapati wavelength kami sangatlah sama.
Jadi persefahaman dan percaya mudah lahir diantara kami.
Lalu daripada kenalan,berubah menjadi sahabat.
Dalam masa 2 hari.

(Language changed)

I used to share all the things about me

With someone who has the same way of thinking

like me.

So,i told her a lot of things.

I talked honestly with her.

Nothing's covered or censored.

So,what i'm trying say is,

i told her about what had happened to me.

I didn't told her about your wrongdoings or your shits.

It's different.

And i don't have all the time in the world

just to condemn you my friends.

I just express my point of view

when you caused me some troubles with my oath.

Is that what you call damnation?

Please,we are different

I think with the way you never expected me to think.

don't ever hope i'll be someone else.

Because this is me.

And i'm happy with that.

The rest,

I'll tell you why i can go easy with girls.

The reason is . . . .

" IN MY NEXT POST "

Before that,please define these words.Wisely.

#FLIRT #BESTFRIEND #CONDEMN #28 #Different

Post Seorang Siswa...

In the name of Allah,the most gracious and the most merciful

Assalamualaikum readers. Long time no babbling in this dusty blog right?

Sorry for leaving you guys for such along time.

I've been busy after i started to work at the Burger King after my SPM.

Hell yeah,i've worked at BK since i didn't get a job from I-City.

Do you guys remember it?

To make it clear,see this.

So,after i got a not so good result,

I pursue my study in UiTM for foundation in law.

I'm staying at Padang Lalang where is my hostel is.

But unfortunately,all my classes are held in UiTM Bukit Sekilau

Where the girls are staying.

The things that made me felt grateful

to Allah when i got an offered to go to UiTM Kuantan are.

First :

Far from home . . .

Second :

Near with 2 shopping malls. (i can walk there)

# Berjaya Megamall

# East Coast Mall

Third :
Near with the beach

So,recently i've been enjoyed my time here.

The precious and peaceful time in Kuantan.

Though i know,this wouldn't last long.

Just enjoy it like it'll never ends. . .

P/s : More to type,more to tell.